Wow. . .

- A lot has changed since my last post. Some things for the good, others not so much. I have not told much about me and my situation. I've been through a lot of rough times since my last post. Exactly 6 months and 9 days ago, my mom passed away. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my young life. I don't think that  I really have even processed it. I just try to keep my mind busy, and not think about it. I have one thing that is stoping me from doing that. I feel responsible for my mom's death. I was the only one that ever took care of her; helped her. And it doesn't help that other people blame you for it either. Problems were happening at my home, and after I left what happens? She starts getting worse. And I had no way of helping her anymore. Days went on, and she continued to get worse. And on March 23, 2012, 3:34a.m, I recieved the worst phone call of my life. One that I would never get out of my head. It was my dad, telling me that my mom was in the hospital, and they didn't think that she was going to make it through the day. By the time I got up to the hospital, my mom had hemoraged out the nose from a medical error. I don't remember much after that... As you see, I am a bad person. i should have been there for my mom more. I sould have been at the hospital with her when she took her last breath. But I wasn't. Hopefully my mom will forgive me for what I didn't do for her. Just remember, always tell your mother that you love her everyday. You never know when it will be the last time you talk to her. . .